Well, today was the first uni day for 2007. I’m itching to finish, as it is my final year (also 6th year… itch itch). Again, trying to wake up this morning was tough, trying to wipe away the sleep from my eyes. Lack of motivation to go to uni was magnified seeing as though I have to go in 2 weeks earlier and also since it is my 6th year.
This whole week is what you call the “Teacher Preparatory Week”. During this week the university will provide us with people from outside that would share about their experiences in teaching in secondary schools and what to expect when we become high school teachers. Quite honestly, my whole attitude toward this week had been quite crummy. I was imagining myself sitting in these typical lectures, dozing off into boredom as I could be thinking of so many things that I have to do on my to do list. This was probably the same attitude I had as a result of having difficulty in waking up this morning.
Right from the start of lectures, my eyes had started to glaze over. You know when you are in a moment that you wish sped up, or finished faster? When you have a sour attitude, not wanting to be in a situation or place you are currently in. I think we’ve all been there. It may be bumping into the person you really despise and also despise the moment in which you are spending with them or in school waiting for class to be over, for the end of day bell to ring its wonderful melodious overture.
*Nudge, Nudge* Then, it was the still small voice of God nudging me. God was reminding me once again about my attitude, showing me that even if there was something He wanted to do like speak to me or reveal His will at that moment, my attitude was not ready. My heart in that moment was closed, not listening and being disengaged with the moment I was in. So, you would think, well after all it is just a uni lecture. I have learnt too many times that God is always right. So, therefore the issue is with me.
Wow, after repenting for my attitude, I did not realise was would begin to ensue. I then choose to listen with an open, willing and sincere heart. Today, out of the many years of being at uni was when I had really begun to feel the reality of becoming a high school teacher. A lot of what was shared today had clarified the reason why I am studying education. It brought back the passion God had placed in my heart in the first place when he called me study to become a high school teacher. This was a divine moment that rekindled the burning fire of God’s call for my life.
My attitude, from what had seemed a mundane moment, exchanged ordinary to extraordinary. I have learnt a valuable lesson. Your attitude has the potent potential to shape the moments of your destiny.
2 Comments
April 30, 2007 at 11:25 pm
Thanks Nick for sharing another side of you. In fact, i don’t see you as a blog-writing person hehe so i’m quite surprise to see your web-blog. But it’s good isn’t it to share your thoughts out so that we all can learn from you. Continue to share your life with us on this blog, i will come in and read it when i have a chance.
I miss the time that i had with Ablaze 1
May 9, 2007 at 8:38 pm
I don’t know whether I’m allow to reply to comments as a comment, seeing as though I own the blog. But after all I CREATE THE RULES AROUND HERE!! Anyway. Thanks for that Jimmy. Yes, you will see a lot more of me here. We miss you heaps too. So glad to see you flroushing in Daniels! By the way great testimony at prayer meeting on Tuesday.